"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding"

I've known this verse practically my whole life. I've memorized it many times during my school years and ran across it at many times over the years. Proverbs 3:5 instructs us to trust God. Why is that so hard? I think most of us have difficulty trusting God from time to time. But God knows what He is doing. He knows the future, He knows everything, so why do we have so much trouble trusting the One who knows everything?

There are probably many reasons why trusting is difficult. God's ways don't always make sense to us. God told Noah to build an ark. It may have never rained up to this point and the nearest body of water was probably many miles away. It could not have made much sense to Noah at all. We want life to make sense. We always want to set our own terms and timetables.

We have another file of a precious baby girl. We've had it reviewed by two pediatricians and both said "looks like everything was done right and we have every reason to expect a good outcome". So it's time to kick in that mega-trust. Okay, God, we hear You. We trust You. We have decided to proceed with this baby's adoption. We are uncertain of the outcome. We know that other families have her file and that considering her good health, we are prepared for many families to decide to proceed to the committee process. We are not sure if we'll be chosen or if this is just another marker on our road to bringing our daughter home, but we do know that God has asked us to take a leap of faith in this and that He is in control. We are trusting Him and not leaning on our own (limited) understanding. We know that He knows what is best for this child and what is best for our family.

We need your prayers over the next few days as we proceed. We hope that a decision will be made by the committee over the next couple of weeks. This is one giant leap of faith and a scary one, but I'd rather trust God to work "all things for our good" than to not trust Him at all.

Baby girl, this is a whirl-wind journey to bringing you home, but we know that the end result of having you in our arms will be worth every minute of it! We love you with a love so deep that it has to be from God. We're coming baby girl and we can't wait to welcome you home. love, mommy and daddy

~paula